Every Drug I’ve Done, Ranked by How Much It Ruined My Life

Ranking of Drugs and Their Impact 00:00

"I've tried at least 22 drugs that I can remember, and I'm about to rank them by how much they ruined my life."

• The speaker reflects on their experiences with a variety of drugs and aims to rank them based on the degree of life disruption each caused. They acknowledge the unpredictability of each drug's effects, especially concerning side effects that may not become apparent until after trying them.

Shrooms: A Mild Experience 00:15

"The least harmful drug I've done would probably be shrooms... For me, shrooms was just kind of fun."

• The speaker lists shrooms as the least harmful drug they've tried, noting a lack of addiction and significant negative side effects, although they caution that underlying mental health issues can lead to adverse experiences. The initial encounter with shrooms involved intense hallucinations, but overall, it was not life-ruining.

Weed: A Tough Addiction to Shake 01:01

"I don't put it below shrooms because I do have kind of a mental addiction to weed."

• The second drug on the list is weed, which the speaker admits has led to a mental dependence. Despite the absence of physical withdrawals, the speaker finds it tough to stop once they start using it regularly. Reflecting on their long-term use, they advise moderation and warn against becoming too reliant on any substance.

Salvia: Simply Not Fun 01:58

"I would never do Salvia again... It's just really wild with your brain."

• The speaker recounts a negative experience with Salvia, labeling it as an extremely disorienting and unpleasant trip. Given that they only tried it once, they don't consider it a major life ruiner but emphasize its dangerous effects on the mind, particularly for those with pre-existing mental health issues.

Spice: Unsafe Curiosity 02:52

"Spice is pretty bad... it wasn't fun. I wouldn't do it again."

• Spice comes next in the ranking, viewed as hazardous due to its unpredictable effects. While the speaker acknowledges they only tried it once, they describe it as an unworthy experience, primarily motivated by curiosity in a context where marijuana was readily available.

2CB and 25i: Mild but Not Worth It 03:26

"2CB is an analog of acid that is very mellow... But don't do 25i."

• The speaker notes their experience with both 2CB and 25i, describing them as milder psychedelics but not particularly enjoyable. They emphasize the adverse effects associated with 25i, such as severe headaches and other health concerns, encouraging viewers to stick with traditional LSD instead.

LSD: Fun but Dangerous 04:28

"LSD didn't ruin my life at all... but if you're going to do LSD or shrooms, you should wait till you're at least 21."

• LSD ranks relatively high on the list, with the speaker recalling enjoyable experiences but also cautioning about the potential for harm. They stress that while occasional use may not be harmful, the risks associated with early experimentation outweigh the benefits.

Ketamine: Not Worth the Risk 06:21

"Ketamine was just never fun. It was never worth it."

• The speaker describes their ketamine experience as unfulfilling and potentially harmful, warning of physical health issues that can arise from its use. They highlight its accessibility and the ease of developing a dependency, advising caution for those considering it.

Molly: The Addictive Social Drug 07:29

"Molly's pretty bad... but it's just not really worth it, and it can ruin your life if you get addicted to it."

• Molly is marked as addictive and enjoyable at first, yet the long-term consequences reveal a reality of dependency and emotional lows following its use. The speaker stresses that while it enhances social experiences, its addictive nature poses a significant risk.

Whippits: A Dangerous High 08:49

"Whippits will just straight up kill you... It's not a good high."

• The speaker expresses serious concerns over whippits, describing the risk of sudden death from their use. They explain that the brief high does not justify the dangers associated with inhaling nitrous oxide, firmly advising against trying them.

The Impact of Whippits and Stimulants 09:17

"You're suffocating yourself. You're inhaling something that's 0% oxygen."

• The speaker describes the choking sensation that comes from inhaling nitrous oxide, emphasizing the dire consequences of depriving oneself of oxygen.

• They express regret over their use of whippits, labeling it as the number one drug they regret trying.

• The narrative then transitions to discussing other drugs that had a more severe impact on their life, specifically Adderall.

Adderall as a Gateway Drug 09:40

"Add Adderall felt great, you know? I was going all day, doing all my homework, hyped up, didn't really have to sleep."

• The speaker recounts their initial experience with Adderall, which began in their freshman year of high school and was acquired illegally from friends.

• They describe the hyper-focus and excitement it provided, which contributed to a precursor addiction leading to cocaine.

• Adderall is framed as a dangerous stimulant that can lead users to more serious drug addictions, comparing it to meth.

Cocaine: The False Superman Complex 10:41

"You felt like Superman the first few times... Cocaine is the real social lubricant."

• The speaker discusses their introduction to cocaine at a young age, alongside other substances, which gave them a euphoric feeling of invincibility.

• They note the intense social interactions cocaine fosters but warn about the severe consequences of dependency and the harsh comedown associated with its use.

• Crack cocaine is introduced, and although they did not have a strong reliance on it, it's highlighted as another damaging substance that ruins lives and health.

The Downward Spiral of Alcohol 12:14

"Alcohol is very easy to fall into the trap of addiction."

• The speaker shares that their relationship with alcohol began at the age of 14 and quickly became problematic.

• They describe alcohol as a temporary escape but acknowledge its highly addictive nature, which has led to multiple near-life-ruining experiences.

• Alcohol's social acceptance coupled with its potential for addiction makes it a significant danger for many.

The Harsh Reality of Meth 13:00

"Meth is just... the devil. It's the big top three."

• Meth is discussed as a highly addictive substance that drastically alters behavior and perception, leading to severe addiction even after casual use.

• The speaker illustrates the impact it had on their mental health, including the onset of psychosis, and acknowledges the long-lasting effects of such heavy usage.

• They urge viewers to avoid meth due to its overwhelming hold on users and its destructive consequences.

The Dangers of Xanax and Clonopin 14:13

"Xanax and Clonopin will put you so far out of your brain that you don't even know what you're doing."

• The speaker reflects on their struggles with benzodiazepines, detailing lost time and memory due to their usage.

• They emphasize the ease of overdose and withdrawal effects from Xanax, which can cause severe health risks including seizures.

• Relationships suffered due to behavioral changes while on these drugs, showcasing the broader social repercussions of prescription medication abuse.

Lean and Opioid Addiction 15:36

"Lean addicts are just as bad as heroin addicts."

• The speaker briefly discusses their experiences with lean, noting that it provided a sense of relaxation but is just as addictive as other opioids.

• They stress that the casual nature of consuming lean can lead to a dangerous reliance on the substance, as with all opioids.

• Pain pills are noted as a gateway to more severe addictions, linking their use to a path that often leads to heroin or fentanyl.

The Final Thoughts on Heroin 18:23

"Heroin was my number one drug of choice."

• The speaker concludes by acknowledging that heroin was their drug of choice, indicating a significant transition in their substance use journey.

• They suggest that if good heroin was still available to them, they might not have turned to fentanyl, illustrating the danger of availability and access to powerful substances.

Heroin's Destructive Nature 18:33

"If there's one thing you never try, let it be heroin. Heroin will sink its hooks in you."

• The narrator shares a personal account of using heroin for years, escalating to a daily intake of about a gram and a half, which costs around $100.

• The experience of using heroin is described as uniquely intense, with a buzz and nod that surpasses other opioids.

• Despite its initial allure, heroin is emphasized as highly addictive and destructive, leading the narrator to a prolonged struggle with addiction and eventually introducing fentanyl into their life.

• The narrator warns against even attempting to use heroin, noting the significant changes in drug availability and quality, stating that "you can't get that [__] anymore" and urging others not to consider it a challenge.

Transition to Fentanyl 20:00

"Fentanyl is not worth it; I’ve lost so many people to it. It’s evil."

• The narrator discusses the shift from heroin to fentanyl, initially driven by desperation as heroin became harder to find. Fentanyl is described as both stronger and cheaper but presents a different set of challenges.

• Unlike heroin, fentanyl has a significantly shorter half-life, leading to more frequent cycles of sickness and withdrawal. The narrator details the more intense withdrawal symptoms associated with fentanyl compared to heroin, emphasizing the severity of dope sickness caused by fentanyl.

• The decision to use fentanyl is framed as a consequence of the heroin running out, with the narrator expressing regret and a desire to have avoided it altogether, reflecting on the higher stakes and life-threatening consequences it holds.

The Impact of Suboxone 22:12

"Suboxone saved my life. Medical assisted treatment isn’t for everybody, but it helped me out."

• The narrator acknowledges Suboxone as a critical component of their recovery, contrasting it with the destructive impact of fentanyl. While it does create a dependency, Suboxone is presented as a lifesaving treatment that helped manage cravings and prevent relapse.

• The process of weaning off Suboxone is deemed challenging but manageable, and the narrator would choose to endure this experience over the intense withdrawals associated with fentanyl.

• The benefits of using Suboxone extend beyond mere physical dependence, as they describe it as a protective measure against deeper emotional harm inflicted by drug addiction.

A Cautionary Tale 23:32

"Being addicted to drugs sucks. Don't try opioids. Don't try coke. Don't try meth."

• The narrator imparts a cautionary message regarding the dangers of drug experimentation, highlighting their personal experiences with various substances and noting that many people do not encounter as many drugs in their lifetime.

• They express a firm stance against the use of opioids, meth, and other hard drugs, framing their narrative as a means to dissuade viewers from following a similar path.

• There's a recognition of the potential lesser harm in substances like weed and shrooms, but the narrator stresses the importance of being in the right mental state to engage with these substances safely.